Falling Heart: The Rules of Attraction Part ix + x

[This is the first blog I ever wrote on the girl I would eventually fall in love with 2 years ago...
This blog references: 25 Things I Would Never Take Back and is a
prelude to Mar 10 Giving into the Darkerside of the Game: The Rules of Attraction LXX: fb.com/note.php?note_id=56211723026&id=562001482&index=39]

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Falling Heart The Rules of Attraction Part IV Edit I fell for someone. She knows who she is... She fell for me too. I’m falling so hard for her that I even stopped talking to the other girls just so I can concentrate on her. I also don’t want to risk hurting her by seeing the others. I’m at my subject best when I’m with her. I get so happy my heart feels like bursting. I just want to protect her from anything that might hurt her. I would never hurt her or do anything to hurt her. I had this talk with one of my friends, he told me a story about how ppl have these "moments." These "moments" consist of something I can’t say because I know she might be reading this. She does the cutest things. I remember the first time we kissed like it was yesterday. I held her hand for the first time. We relaxed on the couch watching a movie. She cuddled up to me. She kissed me on the cheek and I turned to her and kissed her on the lips (they were so soft). I’ve never felt such a kiss that was so natural and without any kind of akwardness. Overall, It just felt right. This is going to work... I want to tell her, but I don’t want to risk her feeling akward. If she were to read this, I guess I’d be in a predicament, but I wouldn’t care cause then at least I’ll know she knows. This is going to work.... I just know it. Do you feel the same way? [Edit 2: April 8, 2008] _______________________________________________ Monday, November 12, 2007 Well.... I thought I was putting my coat up n calling it quits... but I guess I'm not. I'm back and now known as Jimmy Black (My porn star name) Teamed up with Johnny Deep!!! lol. I didn't want to get back in the game... I wanted to take a break from it all... You know sit down relax with the one girl that really matterED to me... I told everyone the story about her... Everyone knows she'll be running to me... It's not a matter "if" she will... I already know it. The probablem is... am I strong enough to reject her? I liked her a lot and she broke my heart. So when it comes to decision time... it'll be fun to say, "***, I'm sorry."