Girlfriend Commitment: The Rules of Attraction xvi

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

(Current mood: enlightened Category: Romance and Relationship) I get this question all the time from people: If you know so much about women then where's the girlfriend? I'll tell you where she is... Non-exsistant because there's no girl good enough to fill that position yet! You see. I study "what women want" and if I had a girlfriend and still kept continuing my study. I'd be cheating on her every time I talked to a women (everyday). If I had a girlfriend I wouldn't be studying "what women want," I'd be studying what "she wanted." Trying to find out what made "her" happy. Not other "skanks." Honestly. I'm not going to lie to you. I'm going to keep studying what women want and sleeping with as many women as I want until I find a "special" girl that can satisfy all my desires. When your in a relationship your suppose to be commited. Your suppose to not even think about other women. You wouldn't even fucking put yourself in the possition to attract other women. Which is why you wouldn't even go to clubs or maybe even bars with your friends. Because people should be smart enough to know what "cheating" is. My girlfriend is going to be happy because I know what I want. She'll know what she wants. I myself will know EXACTLY what she wants because I'll be studying her every desire to do my best to fullfill her boyfriend needs. I won't just be a boyfriend to her, I'll be a "perfect" boyfriend to her. Not even thinking about other women. Honestly, other women won't even cross my mind. Just because I can get with other women, doesn't mean I will or would. (Man what a lucky girl lol). So women and men out there. What is your idea on commitment? And do you truely know how commited your boyfriend/girlfreind is? 9:58 AM 1 Comments 2 Kudos Darlene Joanne .....................i like this blog. because it makes me realize alot of things that i should've been concentrating on.. Posted by Darlene Joanne on Wednesday, January 30, 2008 - 6:03 PM

Private : The Rules of Attraction xiv + xv (A Choice From the Darkside)

Monday, January 28, 2008

Private : The Rules of Attraction xiv Current mood: amorous Category: Music Chains of our memories binds us together On a starlight evening full of bitterness We leave tonight as if it's our last Forgeting the things we did in the past I'd tell you not to forget me but it wouldn't make sense At least tonight we could ride the wind like a second chance Your eyes cut me like a diamond blade as your heart bruises me like a debt that's unpaid. It's our only night we can be together. Until you go back to being his forever. I comfort you with one last kiss until being back into an ingrorant bliss I let you go to him because I know you My hearts desire sometime I'll show you Chorus I'll crush you with the weight of my love and then cut you with the sweetest kisses (The chorus needs to be edited... it's too sour) ________________________________________ Tuesday, January 29, 2008 A Choice From the Darkside : The Rules of Attraction xv Current mood: apathetic Category: Romance and Relationships My last "private" blog entree was about a girl. She already knows who she is. It's private because I know she reads everything I write. Especially the ones I write about attraction. She's the only one that gave me hope. Hope that monogomy might work. I would drop everygirl in the world for her. I did. I did it in hopes she would do the same. But that was just a fools hope. False Hope. I don't want to be "the other guy." But I have to. I suck it up everytime I talk to her because I don't want her to get scarred and run away again. I know I can take more because fear of loss or even of anything doesn't phase me anymore. I wish she could do the same. But she can't. She won't. She doesn't want to. And that's why I don't believe in monogomy anymore. The funny thing is. If she left him, it would taint my belief in monogomy. Because we would start a relationship on something other then what I want. Something I'm trying to avoid. I told my friends about her cause i'm falling for her. Hard. As hard as the concrete I stand on when I think about her. As hard as the way my heart turns cold from rejection. I thought I loved her. But who am I to know what love is? Who am I to judge what love is? Have I ever been in love? I'd like to believe I was once. But that would be a bias opinon only because it's something I WANT to believe in. Not something that's truly true. So I write. I write about her. I live about her. I do it for her. Why? Because of the hope I don't want to believe that's false.